You may not be able to convince my therapist of this but, I don’t cry easily. When my colon ruptured I didn’t cry. When I was told I likely had a lethal illness, no tears. Priests refer to me as “the ice princess” at funerals. I don’t choke up, whimper, sob or wail over much.
I couldn’t seem to stop crying today. I am tired. I am completely worn and frustrated with being bullied by a broken system. Health insurance in America is utterly and irreparably broken. At least that’s what the Massachusetts Health Connector and anyone else who is an advocate for health insurance in Massachusetts would have you believe.
Last week I was assured by my Senator’s office that they would assist me. Liars. Last week I was told by the Mass State Health Connector that within the next five days I would have resolution of their continual mistake that has cost me three months of health coverage . Liars. I have called two advocacy agencies that were both very sorry that they could offer me no assistance as their hands are tied and they have no clout with the Massachusetts Health Connector.
After I called the Health Connector again today (day 7 by the way) and got another promise of health coverage, I called Senator Warren’s office in Washington and Senator Downing’s office in Boston. Senator Downing’s office at least had the decency to send me an email confirming last weeks promise of what I had already secured by myself without their assistance! I sent them a letter in response:
Thank you for your attention to this matter, albeit late. I would take heart in this information if I hadn’t been informed of it myself earlier today and what is now several times over the past month. I no longer believe the state of Massachusetts is going to resolve this problem. I no longer believe you. I am lacking all confidence as I have now spoken to EcuCare and Advocacy for Access who have both told me they are impotent in regards to this issue, and I am one of many who are in a chronic struggle with the state insurance program. The abuse from the Mass Health Connector has occurred over years (ie being discontinued from insurance for no reason, and more recently exacerbated since December when they knowingly issued me an insurance I could not use.) The Connector has repeatedly taken payments for insurance I have been unable to use, and in fact for a policy I cancelled.
* This whole mess has pushed me to take some time off. I can’t afford it … but I can’t afford not to… I am going to take some time off from work. If I can swing it maybe I’ll head out to a beach… just gotta arrange it.
Have a good week.