In addition to “regrouping” and trying to get my life unstuck, I’m having an existential crisis. I often find myself at these times thinking, “Of course that’s the truth of the situation! Why are you questioning this? A monkey could have figured this one out!” That said, feel free to come along for a very obvious little ride.
If it’s true that “you can’t take it with you,” then what’s the point? Is any thing really important? What shapes our destiny? What makes life worth living? I spend day after day trying to convince people with social anxiety that other people are not paying so much attention to them that they need to fear their judgement. I truly believe that even when involved in an impassioned argument, the other person is often not listening to my obvious stroke of genius, but rather thinking of the next thing he is going to say. So if all that is true, what is it that makes our lives matter?
If the only things I can take with me are what I came in with, then the only thing that matters is making my life a venture for good, because none of those other things are worth anything in the long run. I suppose making life an insufferable piece of trash is also an option, after all, Hitler has a lasting legacy. This isn’t about leaving just any mark. It’s about leaving a mark that improves life for the living. He improved nothing despite his own warped idea of what he thought he was doing. Evil leaves damage in its wake; a wound. I don’t think mine or anyone else’s purpose it to burn a scar into Existence.
We often like to think the tangible things are important, but that’s an illusion. Sure, for a time a few people may remember I drank tea, not coffee, or I owned the world’s longest running Chevy but, that won’t last-because those things don’t matter. What matters is did I cause suffering or did I make life better? The only way to make a positive difference is through an endeavor to make living better for others and myself . At times it may feel like a risk, but doing what’s right is the purpose for existence.
Nothing lasts forever except this one thing. What we choose to do matters.
*** The views and opinions expressed are those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the entire human race.