This week was stage three of the “Unsticking Project.” My intention was to go into my walk in closet and face some old memories. My hope was to restore order to the otherwise chaotic space that was housing my deceased partner’s things and thereby chase out some of the chaos in my own head. It’s been two years since we got news that he and his brother may have been killed, but we still don’t know as they have never been found. If I knew then would I have agreed with ” Yes, of course you have to leave and find your brother” ? Yeah , I think I would have. We both knew it was a risk.
His brother had a severe developmental delay and unfortunately had been left alone by his mother’s untimely death in their Tibetan village (not unlike a third world country but with a vicious military presence.) It was an impossible situation. If we had known they would have been killed would either of us had said ” You have to go, I understand” ? Either way it was a death sentence for his brother. At least this way I have the comfort of hoping that when he died, my partner was satisfied to be comforting his brother, who did not die alone and terrified.
- STAGE 1 : DONE AND STILL IN PLACE AND WORKING
- STAGE 2: MY PART IS DONE AND I AM AWAITING NEWS THAT WILL ALLOW ME TO MOVE INTO THE NEXT STEP OF THIS GOAL
- STAGE 3: PHYSICALLY DONE. EMOTIONALLY – WORKING ON IT.
- STAGE 4: STAY TUNED!
***And a stillness was layed out upon the land. It was purified and cleaned. Surfaces that had not been visible in years now appeared and Ivy saw that it was good. The memories though painful were lovely as well. And the Lord said ” Do not go forth to produce chaos and accumulate material things you no longer need, but instead work to nourish your soul” … (lol, I do hope God has a sense of humor… cuz, I still crack myself up!)